DeShan Family

"Taste and see that the Lord is good; blessed is the man who takes refuge in him." Ps. 34:8

This verse has been on my heart since last Thursday morning right before I took the first pregnancy test to determine if we were pregnant again. It has given me such a peace. God brought it to my mind and then as if to confirm it to me I was reading - The Pursuit of God- by A.W. Tozer and it was in the chapter I read last Thursday too.

I have felt a renewed realization of what it means to trust God. I think that before we lost our baby I had never really experienced anything that caused me so much pain emotionally. I realized that I have to trust God even if that means He chooses to allow things to happen in my life that cause pain. I have always known this to be true but I feel like I had never experienced a really painful incident to make me consciously think about it.

Well, if you did not catch on from the above...we are pregnant again and as Cindy DeShan encouraged me...I have to give this baby to the Lord from the beginning because otherwise I will never stop worrying about it. It is so true. I am so excited to be pregnant again but keep thinking I really just wish I knew the baby would be ok. But then that is not allowing myself to trust God even when I dont know what is going to happen.

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